maybe a boy?!?!

Grr. so we were told that there was an 80% chance that the baby is a girl. We have named her, and talked to her.. and the hubby even sings her lullabies at night...

and then, BAM! possible penis?! wtf?! at my last ultrasound, the report says under "gender" "appears to be ? male (previously female)" HUH!??! did she just decide to grow a penis? did the person miss it last time? are they confused?

I sure as hell am confused.. I wanna know whether River is River, or if she is Desmond.. cause if she's desmond, I need to get to work liking the name :o/

Mat leave.. when?

So I've been thinking that I'll take my mat leave two weeks earlier.. or.. take two weeks vacation time the two weeks prior to my official mat leave. Every time i think of doing it though, I feel guilty. Why? I have no bloody idea? I feel almost like I'm letting people down, because all along when I was trying to get pregnant, I told myself I would stay at work right up until my due date. What I wasn't counting on was how sick I would be for the whole time? I'm 27 weeks, and I'm still throwing up at least a few times a week, and feeling queasy anytime I'm not throwing up.

so really? I'm surprised that I haven't used a single sick/vacation day. I've gone to work through puking, colds, fevers, back pain from a pinched nerve, headaches... and I haven't complained (at least not loudly) so I shouldn't feel guilty about wanted to really focus on getting ready for the baby instead of being 9 months pregnant and stressing about stupid crap at work. I have a very stressful job, and I have no reason to feel guilty for not wanting to be there until the last possible second.

Also, in that two weeks, I could go to my sister's every day while the hubby goes to work... she lives closer to the hospital where I'm supposed to deliver, and it's practically on the way to the hospital from hubby's job.

I refuse to feel guilty for going on my mat leave two weeks before my due date. :/

will baby arrive early?

A coworker of mine's cousin just gave birth to her first baby. She was due August 28th, and had the baby yesterday.. august 4th.

so... How common is it to have a baby early? if I plan to work until November 25th, and I'm due November 30th... what happens?

I don't really want to stay there so long, but I don't want to have to leave before I'm scheduled to.

Labor is scary enough.. now I have to worry about being at work when it happens?

work..stress...blah..

Work is getting more and more stressful. People are helping me out less and less (and by helping out, I mean doing *their* job)

I feel like ripping my hair out, and everything just seems more exhausting than ever before. Hubby keeps mentioning that I'm only there for four more months, and so that's what I'm trying to focus on. At least there is an end in sight.

so November 25th is looking like it will be my last day. I'm due November 30th, so if all goes well, I'll work right up until the friday before I'm due. Hopefully I won't go insane before then.